I turn 35 on October 29, 2022. I’m not sure what it is about birthdays ending in 0 or 5 that makes them seem more important? In 5 years I will be 40 and that just seems too crazy to me!
Looking back on the life I have never been one to know what I want to do. In college, I changed my major a handful of times; I wanted to be an engineer after I went to an engineering camp, a teacher, lawyer, and eventually settled on Public Relations with a minor in Marketing. After I graduated I was one of those people in Sam’s club asking ‘have you ever tried this product?’ I didn’t like it, apparently, I hate people telling me ‘no’ all the time.
After talking with friends I signed up with a temporary agency that places people for small amounts of time. I was placed in a law firm as a paralegal. I did it for about a year and moved around to different departments. It was nice because it was always different and the law firm was in downtown Cincinnati. I was living in Hyde Park and working downtown, to me that’s what I had always wanted. There were no talks of signing me on for an actual position and I wasn’t fully fond of the job.
A friend of mine was leaving her job as a “Marketing Assistant at a home healthcare company and recommended me for the job. The job was assisting 6 marketers whose job was to go into the hospitals and doctor’s offices to promote our skilled nursing services. I ended up being there for years when I left to be a stay-at-home mom when Parker was born.
I have loved being a stay-at-home mom to Parker and Hadley. It was the right decision for our family and having that time with them before I was diagnosed with cancer was wonderful. Being diagnosed with cancer changed your whole outlook on life. You realize it is short and we don’t know how long we have on this earth. Makes you really question life choices.
In November of 2021, I ended up getting a part-time job. I am currently a server at Skyline Chili. It’s the same thing I did when I was in high school and through college. Part of me thought at this point in my life I would be doing something different. The job is super flexible. I get to take my kids to school and pick them up. I work nights but still feel like I miss out on some aspects of life because I didn’t request off.
Here I am 42 days from my 35th birthday asking myself what am I doing with my life? I know being at home with my babies is important to work, and being able to serve is making extra money for my family. My therapist was saying it’s all about the perspective of your mind. Instead of me saying/thinking ‘I’m still working at Skyline.’ I should try saying ‘I get to work at Skyline because I beat cancer.’
As I turn 35 I want to work on finding out who I am again and what am I passionate about. I love sharing things I find with people. This corner of the interest is safe which I like. I need to stop making excuses and go all in and not care about what people think. I have learned that once I start making progress or strides toward something, I get nervous or scared, make some excuses, and stop.
I want to make 35 my best year! I’m not naive, I know bad, sad, and scary things will happen. I want to make a promise to myself here and now.
In my year 35, I will put my all into this blog, finding my passion, living with less, deal with the trauma of the last two years, and be the best version of myself!
I hope you will join me on this journey!